It is difficult to dive in. In my hesitation, I observe a vast collection of air bubbles clinging to my long submerged hands. The richness, the shedding, and the agony of my cycle; the body deformed with bulges of flesh is very beautiful. Nudity is different for me than for most. I grew up with the adults in my life naked in settings like a pool party or seated around the dinner table, my father habitually shaking his junk at me to tease me. There are so many kinds of bodies; the culture of whiteness would have you believe otherwise. It suits the Patriarchy to keep women slight. I dismantle the patriarchy by featuring the female in my work. Not just her body, but also yin and sukha vibes, as well as hidden figures: the mother – Gwen Carr, the child – Tamir Rice.
As an artist I have to express my feelings and thoughts through color and form. While living in Warsaw, Poland in the 90s I traveled to Krakow, often visiting the medieval St Mary’s Basilica with the women in my family. This time was highly influential on my experience of color in the world. I nurtured an ability to see vibrant color in a gray world, Catholic imagery transformed to suit my own visceral and female experiences. A humble traveler, nature lover, and a New Yorker since I was 18, I possess a strong need to feel connected to my body and my experience of the world around me.
Multiculturalism and intersectionality are a deep part of my thinking process. I am drawn to the human need for compassion and love in the portraits I paint as well as the blanket- and tapestry-like scenes I paint on un-stretched canvas. Beginning with a black gesso background lets me show myself as an artist who brings light to marginalized experiences. Through sanding and sculpting as well as physical touch and purposeful gestures with my fingers, brushes, pallets, and found objects I aim to stir the senses with my use of color and texture. I hope the audience wishes to reach out and touch the image before them. Mindful breathing and Proprioceptive Writing help me maintain communion with myself in the making; a finished painting asks the audience to engage in this same kind of communion with themselves.